Traditional Witchcraft and Random Wandering Thoughts (as usual)

I’ve never thought much about all the flavors of Witchcraft. Although as I think about it now, I’ve never been much of a “Witch” I suppose in terms of those who are dedicated to a craft of any kind. I always feel as if I float along on a current of my own alongside an inner knowing that seems to be there with me at all times for as long as I can remember remembering in this lifetime. Quite awhile ago I decided if it sings to me I hum with the music, if it doesn’t then it’s discarded but not totally forgotten and I try to honor the lesson. I’ve learned many things about myself and as I learn to accept who I am, I know for me putting things, concepts, ideals, doctrines, society rules or any being into a box of any kind is not of my essence. It’s not that I don’t peg things onto my cork board but I have accepted the fact that everything is in a constant flux of changing and so am I. I have always hoped I instilled in my children the concept that anything they come across in life, people, history, ideals, rules, absolutely everything should be examined from their own hearts and an attempt should be made when the time is right to keep an open mind because in this process arises life’s greatest and most miraculous epiphanies.

So, as usual my writing is like the Beatles song, “The Long and Winding Road“. I have been reading some blogs on Traditional Witchcraft and it holds more meaning for me than most of the other variances of Witchcraft I have casually studied. It appears to me from my reading, Traditional Witchcraft derives from the ancient cultures of the forests all over the world. Their traditions and rituals were drawn from their folklore, superstitions, and available flora and fauna of the area in which these cunning folk honored natures resources, using what was available to help others in their communities. What could be more beautiful or make more sense? It sings to me that most that follow this craft mostly do their work and rituals either with positive intentions in mind or protection from the negative and there is no one way to do so. You use what is available in your immediate environment and what “feels” right. In most cases I feel that these ancient cunning folk were all very open minded individuals who were also quite open to the fact that everything is connected to the one tree of life and that is where our strength is drawn. Everything dwells within the realm of nature which is the dearest of all miracles in my heart, the only truth from which all things arise here in this time and place. There is so much to learn and be revealed in it’s infinite possibilities and I try my best not to be discouraged that so many of us have lost the way from our source. My dearest hope is that I can plant one small seed from which a mighty oak will grow. You will always hear me say nothing is perfect, that’s just a silly, because in accepting imperfection is where perfection lies.

As above, so below.



His hair was blonde

His eyes are brown

fairies danced upon his crown

Heart swells

Colors resonate


Sound begins to glow

in the end it is simple – she finds her strength through


Labels – Hello it’s Me

Someone saved my life tonight

I have been stuck with my writing for a long long time, since I was about ten years old and my mother came into my room and violently chastised and shamed me for holing up in my own space like I was a freak.  My mother had a great pain in her.  I speak to her now and tell her I love her so much and I’m sorry she went through life with such a great pain.  I let her know I recognize it and I am sorry I did not have the tools at that time to help her through it.  I’ve learned some things since I last left a note on my progress. I’ve been through some changes, but as before I basically still am who I am with a better understanding, self awareness. I will write that book eventually (don’t think I told you that bit) and the biggest part I haven’t decided is will it be fiction or not. Is it possible to write a book that isn’t labeled either? In my world it is possible.

New stories added to my book will be my experience with cancer in the middle of all the newest realizations, that is and was some eye opening and scary shit, talk about leaving your body kind of experiences. Going through group therapy for Women who have been sexually traumatized was most likely the most profound experience. I’ve always scoffed at and resisted group therapy and thought not me, but wow, so me. Why do we resist the most important things that help us move along. EMDR therapy was most likely the one that opened my eyes to who I am deep deep down, the experiences that shaped me and a new understanding of the flashbacks that have had a hand in who I am in this life. I remembered things I had buried so deep and blamed myself for all along the way. The new clarity I have gained has allowed me to live with much less blame on anyone especially me, we are all the characters of our circumstances and it is our work on our self awareness that brings about eventually our self actualization. Oh muses do not ever leave me I beseech you.

Last night I was reading and I came to a part in this book where the main character was asked to write down the many roles or labels he has in inadvertently lived and assigned to himself to live by. So I am thinking and allowing this thought to move through me this morning and as I did so I was surprised at what came out:





Actress on the stage of the world



good girl


































mother earth


dirt, the smell of the earth

No way can I write them all down.  Whoa, that makes me tired and what the hell do I do with that, what does anyone do with that? I can’t come up with any other way to describe the labels that I have placed on myself.  I don’t feel like I am writing down what I am supposed to think or what labels are supposed to be but I am going with it all the same. It has been a challenge every single day of my life to be of this world.  I am extremely uncomfortable here.  I am sure this is a big part of what I am here to learn.

**most of my writing is raw and unedited, just like me

Because I Can

American Pie

Green Panther

tosses cigarette butts

out the car window

at random

because I can

I dare you

judge me

Fuck you

don’t tell me what to do

look in the damn mirror

you said God

if i was a

good girl

i would be fine

Dear Lilith,

The operations manuals are all done and I’ve converted them to pdf.  Please blah blah blah blah (Charlie Browns teachers voice).  Get started in the morning printing right away or it’s the end of the world and always remember for the greater good.  We wouldn’t want to starve at our own banquet now would we?

Thank you,

The Condescending Shithead

#Me Too

“to give people a sense of the magnitude of the problem” of sexual harassment and assault.”

It is me, it is you

mine, yours, ours

all of us

shame, degradation

false truth, open eyes

empathy, self-awareness



I am


space, time, matter, energy

Dancing and Playing, Spinning in the Rain

I’ve always loved splashing, dancing, playing in the summer rain ever since I was a kid. Not when it storms mind you. When my son was young we would run outside with joy and play like maniacs. I am sure my neighbors think I am nuts, pshaw. I’ve always had this vision that everyone would come to their door, their faces would light up, and they would all run outside like children and play with me. Everyone spinning around with their faces towards the heavens. It hasn’t happened yet but someday it might. I always have hope<3 It’s raining, come play.